He wasn't going to get to the bottom of it, I knew that for sure... I haven't so how could he?
But, he was cool about it... Not really intrusive... Nosy no doubt, but not offending....
He figured I lost my job...
My lady left me?
I just found out I was adopted?
He gave up on the prodding, and gave me one jewel which would help with whatever it was I refused to divulge....
"Depression...." he says.... "Is taking wrongs that have been done to you, or you experienced in the Past.... And projecting them into your Present..."
He liked the look on my face.... As I tried to find my socks he just blew off....
"And Anxiety....." he continued, happy to be holding this one man court... "Is taking those same Past wrongs, and negative experiences....and projecting them into your Future...."
He knew I got it....
IN 2009, that is my shit....
If I'm not pouting about what already happened, and I can't change...
And I'm not getting nervous and upset about all these scary imaginary scenarios that "could happen"... Then, I'm present and able hopefully, to absorb all of the right now...
Looking back at the past few years, I spent so much time looking at the trees, I missed the forest...
When times are good, I'm just going to let them be good...
Not let what happened or could happen cripple me....
When times are bad..... Well, they won't be for long....
Life might not of promised me anything, but there's always a fork in the road...
Can't blame nobody else for a wrong turn....
Shouldn't even blame yourself... Learn, and burn....
Keep it pushin...
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