dissclaimer..

sometimes i repeat myself....

often even...

don't get offended, and think I'm purposely wasting your time...

It's really for me... Reminders....

I can't get em all scraped into my skin...

Busting the Snooze Button>

Got up early today...

bout 2... 

went to the living room..

my roommate, Bullshit, was already up...

Lighting up the cone, oooo, I'm just in time....

I'll be right here alllll day...

Tell myself I gonna go look for a job...alllll day...

Call that counselor about getting back in school? eh... it's past 2 and how would I look not calling her first thing in the morning?

I need to work out, the guns look like slingshots.... man, but I can't work out after I smoke, I'll have to get something in tomorrow, before I spark up....

All of sudden, all the channels are messed up...

They all got this dude who kinda looks like me, talking real serious....

That's when Bullshit leveled me...

told me this dude was the commander and chief...

?!

but,but... this wasn't allowed to happen...

wasn't this why we didn't have to really try to do anything?

 because we couldn't do anything?

how am I supposed to just slap that snooze button, until I wanna get up and then spend the rest of the day on the couch smoking weed and drinking beer now?!

That's right you crafty bastards, you know I'm talking to you...

Crawl yo ass back up from out of that crack, and redeem yourself... 

Some of you old fools might've been number 42, or 43 instead of part 1 or 2 of curious g...

Meaning you would've of been number 1... 

But whatever, how about now you try to be number 2?

If you don't get it I'm gonna...

Yeah I said it....

2025...

President Maynard, get on it....

When Good Times Go Bad+

A very smart man, who saw my sad face, at a bar recently... Demanded I have a little Basil Hayden with him, and he was gonna get to the bottom of my sour look....

He wasn't going to get to the bottom of it, I knew that for sure... I haven't so how could he?

But, he was cool about it... Not really intrusive... Nosy no doubt, but not offending....

He figured I lost my job...

My lady left me?

I just found out I was adopted?

He gave up on the prodding, and gave me one jewel which would help with whatever it was I refused to divulge....

"Depression...." he says.... "Is taking wrongs that have been done to you, or you experienced in the Past.... And projecting them into your Present..."

He liked the look on my face.... As I tried to find my socks he just blew off....

"And Anxiety....." he continued, happy to be holding this one man court...  "Is taking those same Past wrongs, and negative experiences....and projecting them into your Future...."

He knew I got it....

 IN 2009, that is my shit....

If I'm not pouting about what already happened, and I can't change...

And I'm not getting nervous and upset about all these scary imaginary scenarios that "could happen"... Then, I'm present and able hopefully, to absorb all of the right now...

Looking back at the past few years, I spent so much time looking at the trees, I missed the forest...

When times are good, I'm just going to let them be good...

Not let what happened or could happen cripple me....

When times are bad..... Well, they won't be for long.... 

Life might not of promised me anything, but there's always a fork in the road...

Can't blame nobody else for a wrong turn....

Shouldn't even  blame yourself... Learn, and burn....

Keep it pushin...

How it Started.. to '09

The morning of November 23rd, 1979  I slept in.. Actually, I had been sleeping in, cause I had told Ma I'd get outta bed on the 19th and I didn't.. She had enough.. Called in the pros.. They scooped me out with a shovel.. But on my way out the door, I grabbed everything I would ever need: my heart, my rabbit's foot, and my grenade.. 

Everybody gotta get their own thrill.. 

We all got our own code.. Live by it, die by it..

mine is 3 things: I think it all comes down to love, luck, and danger...

see, when I believe in something.... I go hard... My heart is too big for my chest when I am captivated... and that can be anything from falling in love to wanting to rescue abused, and neglected puppies off the street... my issue is not going harder on larger projects, I must NOT fear success.. Let's go!

Murphy's Law is crazy... Can't out ninja a ninja... Meaning, DON'T fuck with fate, probability, none of that shit.. How many times do you have to hear someone say something would never happen, or they would never do blah.. And paDDoW!!

I've been shocked and appalled at enough shit, at a tender 29, to not be shocked or appalled at much anymore.... SHIT HAPPENS...

To everybody, animals, plants...(You think the Weed Government isn't in a constant struggle to figure out how to save themselves from "the fire hands"?)

So how do we get through?

I think it's a yank of the slot machine...

Good things happen to good people....

Good things happen to bad people too, so what?

 You could have a daily serving of  4 leaf clover mixed greens, and it ain't gonna matter... 

but i believe in luck anyway.. cause the boat rocks..

And lastly, but obviously the best part...

I always keep my explosives handy...

in these streets, you never know when you just gotta blow shit up...

Really shake it up, you know, go batshit...

People test you.. that's what they're supposed to do...

I haven't used my grenade yet, that's the scary part...

I bet the good ones can get through life without ever using it...

Or at least we will never know they used it... 

Oh nine..

Still got my heart..

Luck comes and goes...

And I can't stop messing with the pin, but I still got that grenade..

Sleeping in is the best thing in the world, but it don't get it done...

I should have been waking up hella, extra early the whole time...

I came out of the gate 4 days late...